grande mocha no whip

So here I am, at work. It's 9:30 am, and I'm drinking my mocha to wake me up for the day (I have been awake since 6:45). I love working downtown mornings as opposed to on the university campus in the afternoons. Instead of riding the bus with students and their backpacks heading to class, I am picking up my morning Starbucks with business professionals in their suits, and I like it. After a semester of being graduated from college, I'm starting to feel a little more grown up. However, working 9-6 every day is exhausting. How do adults find the time for anything?! Maybe that's why most parents I know don't have a social life. With work and kids, they are left with zero time to themselves! By the time I get home and make dinner, I have a couple of hours left...to do what? If I work out and shower, it's time for bed again. If I want to see friends to keep me sane, I don't have time to work out. Oh, the troubles of adulthood.

Having some extra income each month is very reassuring though. I don't have to stress as much thinking about how I will pay my bills each month, as well as how I will save some of my paycheck towards my move to LA. However, this working full time thing would feel a lot better if I actually made the salary of a full time employee. But, alas, that's asking too much, isn't it?

So I got new headshots taken, as I hope you checked out! I have had a total of four auditions since September, and I felt like something needed to change. Maybe it wasn't my headshots, but then again, maybe it was...whatever I can do to help boost my success! I know this isn't LA, so auditions aren't going to be boundless, but c'mon...that's one audition once a month. Two were tapings, so I didn't have a lot of optimism for those, but the two in person auditions I did have, I got called back! I was surprised and oh so proud that I accomplished that first feat! My time will come where I will book a paying gig, but to get over the first hurdle of getting called back, is still an accomplishment in my eyes. But it's going to be really nice to book something one of these days...those paychecks are more than I get paid working full time! And I'd be doing something I love!!

Tomorrow night I'm going to the Network Austin Mixer. The four big casting directors in Austin are speaking as a special mixer to start off the new year. I have worked with two of them before, and I am excited to hear what they all have to say. These are the people who give us actors jobs! These are the people to listen to and to get to know!

I've spent entirely too much time on the computer this past week. Time to read a book.

Feliz Año Nuevo!

This new year is going to bring so many (good) things, and as always, I have too much juggling around in my head. For starters, let's begin with my resolutions.

Now, I never, and I mean never, keep my resolutions. There are always a million things I want to change or do better, and it just seems too impossible. But why? I'm fully capable of doing anything I set my mind to. So this year, I decided not to write them down, though, I suppose I'll be writing them here, and just stick to them on my own (if that makes sense).

First things first, I will exercise and be healthier. I feel so much better when I don't have the extra weight. I feel good about myself, I'm not as tired, and I just feel more energetic. I'm tired of being so tired and lethargic constantly. These past two weeks when I've been on vacation at home and in McAllen, I didn't exercise. I don't want to beat myself up about it because I really enjoyed my break. I got back into Austin last night and will begin going back to the gym this week. My boyfriend is planning on getting in shape too, so that will give me extra motivation. I just need to keep to a schedule, so that I will get enough sleep each night and find enough time in the day to do everything I need/want to do. Because my life is about to get a heck of a lot busier...

I will now be working full time, 40 hours a week at least. I'm still keeping my job with Texas Performing Arts, and I'll also be working with ACL ticketing downtown. The bus commuting back and forth all day might be annoying, but I'll figure it out. With my loan repayments already due, I need the money. I also need the money to move to LA. And to take at least one vacation this year. And, I so so so hope, to get a dog. But that's a whole other story.

My next, or should I say, first, resolution is to be more positive. This past semester has been really difficult for me. I'm not in school anymore like everyone else I know. I have to work every day to afford to live. I've begun the difficult, difficult road to finding success as an actress. I was there when the best dog in the world was taken away from us. And I've dwelled on the negative. So much that I would randomly burst into tears every day, and it scared me. I'm going to try and appreciate the postive in my life and not think about what is bad or could be better. If I believe in myself and stick to my goals, I can accomplish. Looking at this past year, I've already accomplished more than I give myself credit for...in fact, I completely disregard what I have accomplished. I signed with my #1 choice of an agent, I've taken headshots that I actually love, I've gotten called back to auditions, I got a full time job, I lived in my own place, I've added to my photography portfolio, I've gotten a gym membership (which I will start using more regularly), I loved and cared for an animal more than I ever thought I could or would, I made it to 21 years old! I accomplished these things and so much more. And this year will bring even more for me. More income, more change, more success, more everything.

COME FROM A PLACE OF YES!